Thursday, December 18, 2008

"Superpoke" Could Make You Lose Your Home

While I was checking my email, I came across this news about a couple who lost their home in connection with being "superpoked" in Facebook. Apparently, an Australian court ruled to allow a mortgage lender to send its demand to the said couple through their Facebook profile. Imagine that! (read news here)

:ha?:Just what are we going to do when all of a sudden, our electric, water, phone and other bills were posted on our profile's wall??? I'm guessing this is the beginning of so many possibilities regarding the significance of the internet in our lives. I'm seeing a future where everyone stays at home, in front of the computer, all day and all night. Wait... I think that's actually the present already. I guess the future would be us, living in our computers? Whatchathink?

But really... what's your take with the situation where the social networking sites would soon be used by legal practitioners or suits to send us legal documents? Could somebody remind me again the boundaries and rules of these social networking places, and the internet use?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

What to do when your contents are plagiarized?

Just to update you guys, I'm happy to say that the person who maybe at some point unintentionally plagiarized my contents deleted the copied posts from her blog. The judgment? After much deliberation... alright I'm kidding with the attorney-in-fact/judge tone... let me elaborate what I did so you can try it out when it happens to you too.

:ha?:

First off, after realizing a couple of my entries were copied by someone else and were placed in her blog as if its her own, I...

  1. - had to wait till I've calmed myself down before doing something I might regret. It's very common to feel pissed and fogged when you're mad. The best way is to keep your calm and try to think of what better way to do rather than bombarding the plagiarizer's site with maddening blabber of nonsense. (This is what I felt when I realized that the only thought running in my head when everything was still fresh after finding out what happened is: "Why have you done this? How dare you steal my contents? They were simple emotional posts! Why the hell would you be interested in copying it? Duh!" Imagine if I wrote that as a comment, right? If I was the plagiarizer, I wouldn't be convinced in cooperating with myself with that attitude.)

  2. - know your enemy. Or simply put, do more research about the person who copied your contents. Scan the rest of the site and see what else is wrong with it. When I did that I found out I wasn't her only victim. There were other posts including about me descriptions that were copied from other blogs as well. Doing more search within her blog and other links, I found out what her email address is (and her mobile phone too!).

  3. - seek help from the right group of people. Since I am a member of the Pinoyblogosphere yahoo group, I was able to post my problem through the group's email. There I had a number of responses suggesting options that I could try to solve my issue. Whether or not it were sound advices, the point that really meant a lot was the thought that there are people willing to help which certainly works great on boosting up your confidence on doing something and standing up for yourself. My deepest thanks to the Pinoyblogosphere community.

  4. - inform her other victims in case they didn't know. I went to the blogs whose posts were copied on the plagiarizers blog as well. I told them what I discovered.

  5. - address the plagiarizer in a formal way. After being able to exchange ideas with the bloggers who responded to my email, I have already calmed myself, therefore my mind was clear enough to write a direct but polite letter to the woman who copied and pasted my contents on her blog. I sent her a message through her friendster account, since it was a friendster blog, indicating my disappointment with what she did, but telling her that I am willing to let her retain the posts only if she would acknowledge me as the author for it. I also explained to her that what I'm suggesting is the right way of quoting or acknowledging articles or posts that someone liked and had decided to re-post the entries on their sites.
  1. - leave a comment on the posts that was copied from you. On the entries that I was sure was mine, I left her a comment in a not so aggressive way. It was simply a call-to-attention tone where I sort of inquired whether or not she knew that what she's doing can be thought of plagiarizing someone's work. (To prove that it was yours, you can also leave the link of your original post...)

  2. - send her a message through her contacts, links, or friends (if you have the means). After sending her my first message through her Friendster page, I realized she had blocked me from sending her more messages. I couldn't even reply on her email that said she had deleted her blog already (though when I checked it was still up and running with all the posts still there). So what I did was to ask a favor from her Friendster's featured friends to forward to her my messages, explaining why it had to go through them and the issue at hand.

  3. - send her a direct email on her personal email address. This probably spooked her the most. Because she had blocked me from sending her a message on Friendster, I decided to scare her a bit by sending her an email directly to her personal email address. She must've thought she wouldn't get any messages from me but my email definitely took her by suprised. She must've thought I had her detected, hacked or whatever for there was no way I could have gotten her email add. Luckily, glitches from Friendster gave me the chance to see her email address unexpectedly, thus, my ace on deck.

  4. - send her a message on her mobile phone. I bet by now you've already realized that I have come to a point where I'm already becoming pretty annoying and unless she does something about it, I'm not going to stop. I wouldn't dare try contacting her anywhere else if she had managed to answer me back and allow me to write her back. But because she had blocked me from messaging her and did not get a really good reply, I thought she wasn't interested in solving the problem. Therefore, I decided to keep messaging her until she gives up.
Yup ladies and gentlemen, when the right way or the good way didn't work, be an annoying delete-what-you-copied-from-me freak and in the end, you'll have your posts all to yourself again. When being annoying still fails:

BEG... like this: " :please: please do delete the posts you copied from me. My entries means a lot to me. I poured out my emotion on it and it wasn't something I just made up. Everything I write is based on experience and what I felt that time. You can easily come up with one, just please don't take something and pretend its yours. Especially my posts.::("


:ahaha:I'm starting to think that probably was the reason why she decided to delete the posts she copied from me. She explained too that there must've been something wrong with Friendster then because she did try to delete her blog a couple of times to no avail. That's when she decided to delete her posts instead.

Just a TIP: In case you're wondering, and to those who are not aware... as much as possible, do not share or expose the link of a plagiarizers site on your blog post. If it was meant to receive traffic, you would only be helping them get more views and visitors if you direct your readers to their site. Be smart. It would be better if what you'll do is expose the real name of the plagiarizer (only if the person did mean to steal your posts!). In my case, since she had cooperated, I gave her the benefit of a doubt and decided not to highlight who she is nor her blog's link.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

That BITCH!

I don't know what's up with this person... her entries are basically copies of other people's blog posts... how could she be happy with my works? It's very personal... and emo-ish... but all of what I write in here are close to my heart. Better yet, my posts are screams of my personal feeling. I can't stand seeing my own work, no matter how simple it is, used by someone else as if its hers.

just look at this:
The first one were re-posted on her friendster blog, the other two, and who knows how many more, were posted in a nodesluna.co.cc site... what am I to do??? I'm so pissed.:scream:




Thursday, November 27, 2008

Tantrums

My horoscope for today says: "Follow your mood."

It felt like I'm being spoiled. Because honestly, if I follow my mood, there would be a lot of broken stuff around me. I'm having tantrums. I feel weak. I have no one to share my thoughts to. I'm careful not to tell anyone about what I'm going through because that was what I'm advised to do, with fear that people might avoid me if they know. Yeah, I feel like a prisoner of my own doing. I'm the one who has to stay away.

I've always thought of myself as a lab rat, but now literally, I am. I've had a couple of tests. Today, I'd go get the result from one of it. A few of whom I talked to encouraged me saying there's hope the tests would turn out negative. I really don't know anymore. What I really want is to spoil myself more...

Why shouldn't I? I think by now I deserve it. I can't do much anyway. I can't go out. I can't really work anything out cause I'm too weak to do so. My friends are so far away. I have nothing to do but pity myself most of the time... then favor myself with stuff that could make me feel pretty. A way of boosting my self esteem needed at times like these. I feel so alone even if I know there are people supporting me.

I don't know... I just feel like screaming inside.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Puffy Eyes

I couldn't help it. The tears simply flowed. I wanted to throw everything I could get my hands on, but I was stuck suffocating my screams with a pillow. There are things that I wish I don't feel. Thoughts that I wish would leave me. Hoping I could ignore what I want, and what I need.

I also hope to create a box around me. The ones where I could always run to at times like this. I want to contain myself. I don't wanna feel. I just want to stay okay.

Whenever I feel as bad as this I hear echoes of mockery inside my head. I fight with myself within my thoughts. How I pray it was more like a challenging fight with me, but no... it is all but a rage of emotions.

They think it's that easy to control and let loose. To ignore and move on. I'm asked to throw away these thoughts and emotions as if it's something tangible that you can hold. If only it really was that easy. I'm not like them... in control.

IF ONLY I COULD... why wouldn't I, right?

I want to sleep again. My mind had been awake all throughout my supposed sleep. My heart still feels heavy. I have prayed for comfort last night. I asked God to cloak me with warm feelings. I begged Him to stop my heart from breaking without reason. I begged I knew what to believe. I begged... that everything will be alright. I don't wanna hurt. I've had enough the past year, and the years before that. I've done so much, I've been through a lot. I'm tired already.

I just want to be okay. Please. Let me be.


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

And then there’s something to look forward to…

A special friend and I have this dream of becoming one of the best teams there could be in our alter ego world. But that dream requires a lot of conviction, determination and experience from my part. I dare not complain this early, but looking forward? I can only imagine what’s beyond the wall after I climb up those eerie staircases that await me.

Getting there seems easy with the environment I’m in. The people I meet are perfect tools and the resources are quite bountiful. However, there’s a deeper meaning I have to harness on my own. I have to gain that self esteem needed for that dream. Having to talk to people, be around them and all that isn’t sufficient as far as I can describe my status right now. Or then again, maybe I just lack practice.

More than that, I have to learn a lot more to flourish the skill I need to earn. I need more than just the will. There should be the drive to do it, the inspiration for it, and an adequate amount of space and time to deliver.

This is just one of the many dreams I have stored in my future. The fact that I have this option and I believe I’ll have someone beside me for this makes me feel good inside, and quite blessed. Hopefully though, from all these dreams, I’ll find the right one to grab on to.

But this one that I just mentioned? Is quite intriguing even for me, and I like it that way.




Saturday, October 4, 2008

Birthday? Burjer! Burjer!

It's funny. Unlike my previous birthdays, today seemed simple enough for me to appreciate. I didn't expect too much greetings nor a party. I just want to see the simplest blessings I will be given today... and though the day isn't over yet, I'm pretty sure I'm already having a blast of butterflies in my stomach because I am truly touched.

Birthday greetings from friends and families began weeks ago right after good 'ol friendster notified my friends' list about my upcoming birthday. So a warm thank you to the early bird greetings from Jonna (my cousin), Yatoy (an artist friend), Tita Che (Ivan's mother), and Dunstan (another cousin)...

One of the best advance gifts I got was from my lovely little sister, whom, knowing my birthday would be on a Saturday, already brought the cake after her school hours yesterday. My sister who is 11 years old, surprised me with a mini chocolate roll (how come she has more money than I do?) from Graceland. What's great about it is amidst its being a roll type of cake, it actually had icing greetings: "Happy Birthday Ate!" on one side, and a "from: Sami" text on the other. Isn't that just sweet? (literally, with the chocolate and all...lol!):woooh:

Yesterday also, I received a couple of text message greetings before midnight (they probably thought it was already midnight) from more cousins and a surprise call from my Habibi who is now in Oman. That cal
l is basically what made my special day a lot more brighter than I had expected it to be.:inlove:

A midnight-to-be-exact celebration also took me by surprise in the company of my dear friends, Frank and Ajhie with new found friend Sean, MJ's friend and Roy (another artist friend) in my hangout cafe, bar & gallery: Chateau Nouveau. A follow up celebration will take place again there later tonight.

More thank you's are sent out to my Facebook friends' greetings, Mam Janette (touched talaga ko for the effort, greetings na sa facebook pati sa comment ko sa previous post greet ulit! I feel so loved! hehe! Thank you po!), and Belissima Karen (my cousin).

To the Rotaractors of Rotaract Legazpi Central (especially Mace who had been screaming burjer! burjer! sa yahoogroup mail about it...), and Jonna again for messaging me in ym the same burjer theme... big thank you!

Percy, tere! As always, you never miss a birthday greeting, thanks a lot!

My family... I love you so much! Thanks for the spaghetti, and the allowance (Mom) that I'll be asking from you later so I can treat my friends... :sweaty:Hehe... Advanced thank you!

To everyone who became a part of my life the past year, I am truly blessed to have experienced and learned everything that was given to me through all of you.


Dear Lord, again another year, my heartfelt gratitude for giving me this life. May you continuously shower me with enough wisdom to be able to be thankful always for your mercy, your blessings, and everything that I should always be aware of.

To everyone, Maraming maraming salamat po for making me special sainyo!


excess:

Now, if possible... pwede ba magparegalo ng :please:Lenovo Ideapad S10? hehehe...

ciao!!!!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Get In Touch

No matter how close friends are: practicality, maturity or growth, and change in time gives reasons that would result in parting ways. This doesn’t mean though that the parting is because of misunderstanding, bad judgment and all that. Most of the time, it is simply needed. Once school years are through, the next step would be is to find a job and work for a living. Not everyone gets to work together though. Some goes out of town, some are left in provinces and after some time you’ll realize you all are becoming too busy with your own lives that you start to lose touch from each other. Communication becomes lesser and harder to deal with.


And then when an occasion comes, or a memory hits you, you start to wonder, how is that friend of mine? I wonder where he/she is now… and how will I get a hold of them?:ha?:


Luckily, through so many social networking schemes in the internet, we are now able to search for anyone we want to get in touch with. Within the information highway that everyone’s almost hooked with nowadays, you can easily locate people, friends, relatives, or whoever you wish to find. Some of it offers contact details as well, as long as they are enlisted in the social networks sites offered in the World Wide Web.




Tuesday, September 23, 2008

So GOod!

:ahaha:if you only knew where I'm writing from right now... dare i say? oh nevermind. *mischievous grin*

point is, I'm almost back to the way I was. or would i really be the same? I feel new, scared, but eager. It will be a new step for me. Not because I found something new, but because I just feel good. I know things will be better, and it better be. me with my endless redundancy.

New plans. New awareness. Same old self. Same old happiness. Better meaning. More sense. Great challenge. Am i up for it? I guess I am.

Wish me luck!:wave:

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Barely Alive

nothing to write. just wanted to let you guys know i'm still alive... and is stuck in manila for awhile. im close to writing complains and reviews about the company where I get my ID printing supplies. Lately I've been coming back and forth their office for at least twice a week just to have my printer checked and fixed. Our orders remains pending in the to do stuff. I get all the yelling and pressure my mom could muster out of her frustration with regards to the situation. I can't retaliate knowing that she's just as disappointed as I am and is on the verge of breaking down.
oh whatever. im just so not in the mood to write. where the hell is my jolly self? i miss it so bad.


Saturday, July 12, 2008

Fear Not the Stroke of Midnight

I was looking for cool evening dresses and fancy dresses suited for formal dinners and extravagant parties when I stumbled to this site: Elegant Mart.


They have there a wide variety of sexy gowns and stylish dresses that would definitely come up to your taste. What's cool about it is that they actually have there price ranges to choose from, exactly what you need when you're a bit tight on budget.


The picture I included here, - beautiful blue green sexy dress, features the flare of incredible colors and design that will certainly attract everyone in the party if you're wearing it - is actually from one of their offered dresses in their stock and believe me, they even have dress shoes too just in case you are interested.


So who cares about the stroke of midnight? No need to go Cinderella frenzy runaway when you're guaranteed your dress won't go *poof*. Once you own one, you'll be able to simply enjoy the lively party night for as long as you wish.

Okay, can I have this dress then? hmm...:bringiton:

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Can't Get Enough of Adult Websites?

If you're fond of signing up in adult websites, then maybe it's about time you make money out of it. Like what I said in my other blog, if you'll go naughty why not earn some from it, right? Oh come on, let's not be hypocrites. Curiosity killed the cat. But this one definitely is something you can't always runaway from. It's human instinct to wonder about sex. With that comes the urge to try out adult websites... some do it secretly. Some just fills up their inboxes with lots of mails from they're chosen pages.

If you just can't stop, get paid!

Sign Up here and you're good to go:



Referring alone is quite promising already, and more to come with a promise of earning up to $100 a day. Not bad right? So, let's go get rich?! Whatever... :D


Friday, July 4, 2008

Not So Juicy

Lately I feel like a little girl learning how to speak. I usually find myself having difficulty explaining what I meant when I -out of nowhere- stop midsentence in a conversation. It had been happening for quite a lot of times now and I'm worried. Feels like I'm growing dumb more and more by the minute. I could just imagine cracking my head open and find all those wheelcranks having a hard time moving with rust as thick as gum inside my skull.

Why, even this post is taking me a long time to finish. It's also probably due to the fact that I once again have nothing to go through with this entry. I'm, like always, just blabbing about what bothers my already crazy routine life.

I have been checking around with the offered freelance writing jobs hoping to earn some extra income while I wait for better opportunities but somehow I'm a bit skeptical about it. It's not that I doubt whether it'll be a good pay or not, it's actually because although I was confident enough to send my resume online, I'm suddenly feeling lazy when they start telling me my responsibilities and deadlines... especially if they require me to send sample works for evaluation.

Nope, I am not as lazy as you imagine *rephrased from Baz Luhrmann's: Sunscreen*. It's just that, I require from myself a bit of boost in terms of what I want when I'm working. If I'll be a writer of some sort, I'd like to have my own laptop and be able to work anywhere I want to. Knowing of course that that's basically why I wanted the home based job in the first place, right? Besides that, I'd also of course need an internet connection of my own to go with it. But to do that, I'll need to have a budget to start with, and let's face it, or me facing it, I don't have anything here in my pocket to make it a reality. In the end, I'd have to make do with what's available and that's what makes me too lazy to start with the projects. Yup, I'm that spoiled without the right to be.

Another thing that's making this whole set up a bit disappointing is the need to have Globe GCash. Most of the simple sidelines offered in the net requires the recepient writer to have activated GCash as a means of sending and receiving payments from the works. I do have a Globe (AutoloadMax retailer) sim. I actually applied for the GCash already and was told that I have successfully registered. The problem now is that I need to download the GCash Menu in my mobile phone. Sadly, I couldn't find the +MyGlobe services option from my phone's menu. I searched every folder and all that and found nothing. Is it because of my sim? Darn.

Now I'll have to go to Globe's office to inquire. I really need to find something that would inspire me to move my ass. Sigh...

Where oh where art thou inspiration go?



Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Road Trip

Excited about my brother getting into the ever so great Philippine High School for the Arts in Mt. Makiling, Laguna, the entire family decided to attend his presentation a couple of days ago. With just the car I call mini-mini-van, we challenged it to a road trip. It was a means too to test out just how far it can go, and boy it went well. I even brought my best friend along besides the fact that we didn't have enough space to stretch or rest. LOL!

On the way there, somewhere near Calauag proper, we heard something that's not right within the vehicle's engine. The radiator had been dreading overheating that we made a couple of stops before adding water on it, so the noise really bothered us. Luckily we found an auto shop that we can ask for help with the repair. Our car's fan belt's slightly torn. Slight or not, it has been known that belts like that should always be in good condition if you want a safe travel. And with the fact that Legazpi to Manila is 8-14 hours travel, we do need to make sure everything in the car's engine is working.

The mechanic told us the belt was for the alternator, that if not replaced, it would be dangerous to push through with the travel. Uh-oh... The owner of the auto shop went to look for a spare part that would match the fan belt that we need, while we waited and waited... When he came back, the belt he got was different and wouldn't fit so he went again to the city proper with my dad... again we waited. When they came back, the one they got was close enough to the original size but still wouldn't fit. We were becoming hopeless. Not being able to fix the car we were already convincing ourselves that we might spend the night in the middle of nowhere (okay, that's an exaggeration). Still, it is too far from Legazpi nor Manila so, yes, it's nowhere. hehe...

When the owner of the auto shop checked the car parts again, he exclaimed that the belt was actually for the airconditioning of the car (which we weren't using in the first place!) and that everything will go well. That meant, the three hours stay there was all simply for the worry. Still, we were grateful with the auto shop crew's hospitality. After the rest of the car's parts were checked, we continued the journey to Manila with no hassles.

The day after we arrived in Manila, we used the mini-mini-van going up Mt. Makiling to my brother's school. Just like a heavy exercise, the car's engine improved into a more promising travels. After that hike the vehicle had, going back to Legazpi went real smooth and the engine sounded as if it was new.

Geez! I just realized this post would have been great had it been published in an automotive related blog. That's an idea... hmmmm....






Sunday, May 25, 2008

Oh my God! My Life? Oh my God!

Quite a lot of people have been asking me where I've been. And believe me, even my family asks me the same thing. So yeah, I have been adopted by a really loving family lately. Uhuh... after being home based in a closed cafe (that's back into business again recently), I was transferred in my bestfriend's house. Sometimes I just feel so loved knowing people do care about me no matter what.


Although I may have quite a lot of problems with regards to maturity, responsibility and house issues (growing old can be disturbing...) I have been recently devastated when I heard news about a sicko maniac who'd been recklessly ruining my name. So yeah... Just so things are straight, it's actually the first time that I felt like taking revenge. The shows House, MD and this American Dad series has triggered my devilish sarcastic side that I've had some plays running in my head on how to get back to that person. I just hope 'it' realizes how stupid he/she was. Gotcha!


My plan would've been perfect had it not been for someone who's so, oh I don't know... not supportive enough? If only he had heard himself during his oh-i-wanna-kill days, I had expected he'd understand what I'm feeling... but no. Now that it's almost said and done, he couldn't even have my back. Geez... so much for a man. Well, too late now.


The SBCYF's 3-day camp went successfully great. My congratulations to Rabbit! I was so glad I was there for his tribute. I had actually forgotten that it was his last term as president, a farewell song was dedicated to him... and he sang to his girl without everyone's knowledge who the song was for (only an idea that it was his favorite)... I turned around to my friend and saw her crying like a kid... hahaha... So sweet really. I came to realize too that Rabbit was the last in my core group to lead the CYF... the next breed is about to start and for me with that thought, camp and CYF experiences would never be the same again. Sigh... suddenly I missed the old days.


As of now I'm back home, who knows for how long. Hopefully my life becomes brighter again, and I wish I made someone happy. With black miming back to work for nine months, my routines would never be the same. It's like going back to that zombie trying to stand on her own two feet times once again. Where do I go from here? Yup, the minor set back had disabled my plans that at my age and situation I'm again facing the what do I do next issues. Argh... someone drop that ton of iron already for I'm done here.


Well, wish me luck guys! And pray I don't let my evil side go loose.

Oh, and if you're wondering what's with the American Dad photo for.... I've been watching reruns of American Dad's season 1 series and I just can't get enough. I have actually adopted their commonly used phrase and intonation of "oh my God, this *insert whatever it is that you find awesome here*, oh my God!" Actually, it's just not me. The whole group had gotten this oh my God fever that we all laugh our hearts out whenever we say it. It usually ends with a line or two from the shows opening song... that's how addicted we are with this series.







*Note: My apologies if I just went blabbering up there. Am just trying to put in keywords that could remind me of what happened the last few days. For a shorter version, I have been terribly troubled that I went on with plans to get back to someone. I halfway did it too. A friend of mine left to work on a ship. And I'm being pushed again, to re-align my life. That's why I had to go home. If that still is confusing for you, it is no longer my problem. As if you'll really care right? Har har! Ciao for now!


Saturday, May 3, 2008

So Much For An Update

"Hello! I am Lindsey Lohan!" LOLS! My bad.. haven't gotten over that Achmed the Dead Terrorist youtube clips - Jeff Dunham shows I've been digging on lately (I have almost memorized the lines). Although I don't always have the time to surf or go online, whenever I do I tend to do more of viewing clips nowadays that I somewhat have ignored the urge to write. It's not new though since I have nothing nice to say. Or let me rephrase that, nothing interesting to talk about. Unlike the other blogs that's increasing in mega numbers lately. What was that again? The summer bloggerians? Hehe...

Anyways, while the whole blogosphere's buzzing around with their cliche and niche or whatever, I am hiding in an old house that's supposedly a cafe and resto running close to the brink of bankruptcy. Talk about being haunted, it's actually more like being hunted by bill collectors. Nyahaha! Not my problem. I'm just the house keeper.

That's where I've been staying lately, so I have no means to go online. I do my research analyzation and school exercises there. I usually come home only on weekends or whenever I ran out of budget and clothes. More like a nomad if you ask me... well... that's how life is for me so far. I've been taking up tutorial AutoCad lessons, and am working on a special project my former boss requested from me. My head's spinning whenever I remember the need to study the topic that I'm supposed to write about. It's almost like they want me to study IT. But who am I to argue?! This could be a stepping stone for me to a new job or career... so, wish me luck.

Guess I only ended up giving you updates about how I am.. and yes paolo I can hear? or read? you? wtf! harharhar! Enjoy life fellas!


Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Suppressed

My patience had been tried more than a dozen times these past few weeks, and I don't even know if I'm getting any better at suppressing my anger. Nope, it's not like I'm close to killing anyone. It's a sort of rage that you feel when you're close to having tantrums. Sometimes I'm such a baby when it comes to emotions like that, that I find it hard to simply ignore.

Anyway, I guess my efforts aren't necessarily in vain for I often find myself dreaming the things that I've been keeping to myself. And nope, you're wrong again if you're thinking about it as a sexual thingamajig. LOLS! See? My mind still raises senseless points. What I meant is that, the more I keep my reactions within me, the more I get to face it in my dreams. And believe me, having emotional related dreams where you see yourself so mad or so lonely makes mornings a pain to wake up to. Often times you don't feel rested.

So there, that's my dilemma lately. You can't call it sleepless nights, restless would be a better word.

Sigh.





Wednesday, March 19, 2008

You're A Complete Stranger Now

i wish...

you'd stop pretending you know me so well. well enough to insult me.

i wish...

you'd stop calling me childish. coz the way things are going you're being the boo-hoo brat here sending me stuffs with words only a kid would say.

i wish...

you'd stop accusing me without reasons. and that you'd talk to me directly and not in some kind of puzzled debates.

i wish...

you'd stop assuming you know just what it is that i know and what i'm supposed to know. because obviously, you don't.

i wish...

you'd be mature enough to tell me what's wrong.

and i wish...

you won't regret what you've just said to me... because right now, you've pushed me away enough to say that even the friendship that i long to offer to you melted with what you intentionally did.

best of luck! God Bless...

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Mild Shake: HELLO!

after the wet and wild experience, now comes a mild earthquake. i'm afraid to ask what's next, so i won't. yes, my dear readers, if i still have some, i am still alive amidst the weird weather we're having here in legazpi.

i don't know what i've been up to lately, but all in all i've been away from the computer (hallelujah!), and was unable to go online even if i want to. nope, i have not been to the mountains and back. but i have been going around places through emotional rides that had kept me quite occupied.

oh well... i really don't have anything to update here. just thought i'd drop by in my own blog and say hello.

HELLO!:hi:

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Wet and Wild, Legazpi!

as i write this post, the whole legazpi anticipates just how much higher the flood will rise. rain had been pouring so hard for days now even when i was still in manila. when i arrived the other day i realized just how fast the water rises right at the very centro of legazpi city. classes had been suspended for almost a week now and the mall today closed two hours earlier than usual.

i myself had to walk through the flooded streets of the city since passenger jeepneys and tricycles refuse to roam around and were all on the way to their own families as well.

probably because of the trauma the typhoon had inflicted on the bicolanos, everyone are quite panicky. there isn't any mentioned storm, low pressure area, or typhoon yet but everyone's making sure everything is again wrapped in plastic and placed in higher compartments within the household.

a few of the families in easily flooded barangay's have evacuated to safer grounds.

will keep you guys posted while the electricity's still on. what a night! and more to expect, i guess.


Wednesday, February 6, 2008

my name? yeah sure...

:lamagawa:with the explanation below, i think i should change my name...

oh well... most of what's said sounds true to me. except that lately i don't feel that great... whatevs!

What Andrea Karlsan Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your t
houghts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in
the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little fla
ky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have
learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.





You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't
get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.





Monday, January 14, 2008

the comeback? or not...

i guess i have had enough of this uncalled for hiatus. however, with the lack of anything good to write besides the frequent blabbering of how life sucks so bad, i really have no choice but to stay silent.

how am i really?

disturbed. confused. and yes, with that two words it's best to say that when someone told me to "GROW UP!" it actually caught my tongue. a huge SIGH is all i could muster in response.

the truth is, my mind is occupied with so much thoughts racing uncontrollably. useless thoughts that are only messing up what could've been a good plan. or maybe i never had a good plan. i just thought i had.

all i know is, when suddenly the least person that you expect starts to make sense, and you hear echoes of the same sense surround you through everyone that you care about and love, you realize that there really is something wrong with your life.

realizing, however, is easy. it's the next step that's quite frightening. this is my happy new year update. or am i simply imagining that i'm really typing it?

kumusta naman kayo?



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